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A Thinker's Shared Spot of Stories of Living



Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Day 58, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 5:09 AM

It seems my mind is still infected with my fear to those "Ghost Sounds" I mentioned several days ago. Being an active imaginer, my brain continously playing "Ghosts encountering" scenarios on my head whenever I am idle. The worst has been happening at night, when I close my eyes and try to sleep. The imaginations event squeezing my mental conditions, making me uneasy and feel presses.

Is this just my imagination, or is this a work of a "evil supernatural being" ? I don't know, and as much as I want to know, I fear the ways of finding out the answer.


Monday, February 27, 2006

Daay 57, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 5:00 AM

To wrap up my activities yesterday: Sleeping, tinkering around with my new S75, and playing CIV4. What a weekend, right? Yeah...

Anyway, It turns out that siemens S75 still has many bugs in it. The one regarding its media player is somewhat annoying, but will be rather rarely encountered by me: If you already playing the media player, chosing: "Add Playlist" will show that both cellphone's memory and the installed RS-MMC are blank, and if you press the middle navi keypad, it will shut the cellphone down. But like I said, I will rarely encounter this problem, so it will be fine for me.

Another bug is the interaction between the cellphone and its managing software (installed on PC), Mobile Phone Manager. It seems you need to launch the MPM first, then connect your cellphone and let the MPM recognizes it. Also make sure you have set the right outlook version (or lotus version) to be synchronized by the MPM, or you'll have it going round in circle of error when used to synchronize the cellphone with your managing software data. It's a shame that for every newe release of MPM, new bugs arise, kinda reminds you of microsoft, right?

Anyway, it seems fear of "Supernatural beings" still hovering inside my mind, kinda pushing me into some unstable, cowardice person whenever I am tired. It's creepy.


Sunday, February 26, 2006

Day 56, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 11:18 AM

Completed all missions intented to be done yesterday :)

First mission is to put my aging Siemens M65 cellphone to Siemens Mobile Service Center (actually, Siemens Mobile is now Benq Mobile, after acquisition by BenQ). It turned out that the keypad section of the cellphone was penetrated by a kind of oily substance. Hmm...wonder where's that oily substance have come from...Anyway, the customer service girl told me that I can call them later on sunday to make sure whether I can have my cellphone tomorrow and whether I have to pay for something for the reparation. Hopefully, it will be up and running again on monday.

Second mission is to get me a new cellphone: Siemens S75!! Yep, I long for replacing my aging (tough, but aging) Siemens S65 with a cellphone that can play MP3. Generation 75 cellphones from Siemens, from CX75 all the way to SXG75, all have MP3 playing capabilities. I was waiting for SXG75, cause this one is the next all in one cellphones after Siemens SX1 but since SXG75 has been said to will not be sold in Indonesia, I have to chose for other phones.

I have to chose between M75, the next tough phone after M65, or S75, the S class (exclusive) of 75 series, which has dedicated music player buttons.
The price difference is about US$20, so I chose S75. With that US$20 difference, you have music playing buttons and 128 MB of RS-MMC included in the package (M75 only has 32 MB). So I chose S75.

The cellphone turned out excellent, albeit a small screen resolution of only 132x176 pixels. What makes this thing turn out excellent is the quality of the speaker: It is good (for a cellphone). Although monophonic, the acoustic design of the cellphone makes the sound that comes out of the speaker can be heard as if it's surround sterophonic. It will be AMAZING if the speaker is stereo, but being able to mimic surround stereophonic while still monophonic is a COOL feat on its own.

For now, I'm still learning nuts and bolts of this superb cellphones. Oh yeah, the MP3 players can be put on the background, so you can still hear the music playing while you're typing SMS. Cool eh?

And now, for the third mission. The last mission felt like a covert mission for me, cause I have to misuse a device on a hypermarket to fulfill office duties. Sounds interesting? Continue reading.

The story goes like this: My office, being a petroleum field operator, needs to use a heavy density, solid free completion fluid that will be used to complete a gas well. So my office opened a tender, and bidders come forward.

There are only two bidders. These two bidders got themselves into a lawsuit war during the tender process, so my boss has to take comprehensive measures to pick the winner. One of the measurement is to evaluate the suitability of the completion fluid itself.

The first evaluation is component and property analysists. Those were done on an independent professional laboratory.
After the results came, my boss suddenly came out with other ideas to test the fluid itself that can be done on the office: precipiation tests (done with putting the samples in a bottle and put them where the temperature ranges are the widest: office window :P ), and corrosion test.

The corrosion test is where my covert mission came in. You see, the corrosion test done with putting slabs of metal inside inside the sample fluids which are put inside their containers. The objective of the test is to measure differences between the weights before and after the immersions.

So I have to know the initial weight of each slab, right? Right....

This is where my problem arose: the field lab guy, the one who sent the slabs, forget to measure the weights of the slabs...so I have to found a way to measure them.

And fruits counter weighting scale came in mind.

So I went to hypermarket, paper napkin from my bento dinner, labelled by using a pen on a stationary store, accompanied by the slabs of metals on my pockets, and hunting instinct on my eyes. Not even the pretties girl in the world with bare 36C breasts could divert my eyes from looking for a scale. I finally found it, but not fruits weighting scale, and not the exact kind of scale, but it will do.

So I turned the electricity on the scale on; put out the firs slab,put it on the scale; ripped a portion of the paper napkin which labelled 1; get the camera on my new S75 ready; took a picture which captured the paper napkin, the slab, and the weight of the slab displayed; wrapped the slab with the paper napkin, and put it into my pocket.

With high degree of self confidence and a strong willpower to make myself invisible (which is somehow useless..but you could feel the warning "STAY AWAY FROM ME" emitted strongly from my person), I repeat the whole process twice more.

After the third, with all three slabs properly label..er...covered in paper napkins, I went to other sections and bought 4 packs of Tango Wafers and one pack of Instant Ginger Ale sachets, went to the cashier, paid them, and get out of the hypermarket, with all of my missions accomplished.

What a day :)


Saturday, February 25, 2006

Day 55, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 8:58 AM

Boy, a very late entry, isn't it?
Anyway, do you aware that you are living in a "perception driven world" ?


Friday, February 24, 2006

Day 54, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 5:08 AM

Sleep trouble continued. I wonder if daily intake of creamed coffee could alter my "sleep inducing genes". As lack of sleep mounting, my evil side has been slowly taking over. I have been able to feel evil, thinking evil thoughts.
My friend got gang robbed two days ago, on a street crossing bridge close to my office. I swore to punish the robbers gang and kill them if necessary, under the heavy influence of the evil side.
It's scary.


Thursday, February 23, 2006

Day 53, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 5:09 AM

I won the QSHE poster competition. Got myself quite an amount of money. Finally, real money coming out of my art.
The "ghost" was not heard anymore.
I am truly saturated.


Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Day 52, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 10:03 AM

It seemed I got a kind of ghost running around the outskirt of my house.

You see, I was attacked by a kind of mild insomnia last night, so I slept close to midnight (not a good thing for someone who has to get up and prepare since 4.30 a.m, I can sure you of that).

Since my room felt hotter than usual, I decided to move to my sister's room (she was at college in Surabaya, some 1000 kilometer away..) where it has been always cooler than my room.

But soon, something chilling happened. A sound, voice, heard as sinister mix of laughter and a pig's squeal, emanating just outside the room, under the tall mango tree. It last for 5-10 horrible minutes. Then silence.

And then slowly, another sound emanated. It sounds like high pitched cry of a cat mixed with that of a baby. It sounded shrill and thrilling.
It sounded like some ethereal creature. It's a "banshee".

So I escaped the room, and joint my mother and aunt who slept on the living room's floor (they prefer to sleep there and that way, it's cooler they said). I woke them, and made them listen to the sound of the "banshee". They heard it too. That means I'm not delirious.

Man, It was a horrifying night!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Day 51,2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:36 AM

Back to office, back to routines, back to cold, particles dispersing merciless Air Conditioner.

Speaking about nasty treatment to breathing system: do you believe in holocaust?
I mean, I don't understand why europeans are so fearful on denying this holocaust, but they turned a blind eye when Bosnians are systematically suffered under Kroasian genocidal fight.

Why does a denial to holocaust worth a trial? Does denying holocaust equal to performing heresy or is it simply because europeans are so under the influence of those cursed sons of Jacob?

I am an anti-semit, cause I have no reason to not hate them. They rob a country off its lands. They have systematically put the world into an economic model where the intangibe assets are the dominant of wealths. They have systematically made lies about being the worst victims where others are (take a look at Inquisition: the worst victims are the moslem, but those bastars have manipulated people's belief and claim they are the most suffered).

So, until they take their dirty hands off Israel, I will hate every sons and daughters of Jacob.


Monday, February 20, 2006

day 50. 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:34 AM

As usual, Weekend is my bad hours time. Disorientation of mind caused by lack of activities and boredom saturated inside of me. Tried to reduce that by playing Sid Meier's Civilization IV, but to no avail. Tried to draw some arts, but the inspirations are not coming. Tried to sleep it off, but it was not a help either.

But last night something strange happened. Strange, and somewhat scary: as I had a hard time sleeping, I was thinking bad thoughts, unleashing the wild one inside of me to fully occupy my mind. And suddenly, my metabolism, in chaos since start of last week, stabilized. It became somewhat in order, and gave me focus to do something I need to do: sleeping.

And I woke up refreshed and ready for the world!!

Is that the answer for my problems: awaken the wild one? Is that wild one the one true me? Or is that wild one is a half of me needed to truly restore the order of my chi when I am disoriented?

Scary if it's true. It is sleeping now, but knowing that I need to unleash it when I am down, I need to get my mind ready or I'll be taken over.


Sunday, February 19, 2006

Day 49, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 6:24 AM

I need full retrospection of myself.
I feel saturated, bored, and lost.
I feel entangled, trapped.

I need liberation.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Day 48 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 2:46 AM

Had to take a leave to cure the FLU. Sleep almost all day, and got a net blackout.
Not a good day indeed.


Friday, February 17, 2006

Day 47, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 7:51 AM

Damn flu. It syphoned my concentrations and my fighting spirits, making me lost my forex trading.


Thursday, February 16, 2006

Day 46, 2006

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

day 45, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 3:33 AM

The flu continued. Can't think clearly. Can't blog clearly. Damn flu!!


Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Day 44, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 2:34 AM

Boy, I think I somehow contracted flu yesterday. Don't know where this come from, cause somehow everyone around me seems to be quite healthy.

And boy, how some young people are truly idiotic. One boy was told to be careful with his cigarettes by a concerned woman, only to be rebutted by saying it's his right. Yeah, you idiot. I think it's your right that you're poisoning yourself with that thing. Not to mention that you said that being a career woman, she is on different class than yours. You're right again, idiot. You're stay poor cause you're idiot enough to burn your lungs, and not to mention your money. I guess your money comes from your poor parents, who are idiot smokers too.

All smokers are idiot. They burn their own money, and in doing so, deteriorate the health of other people. All for the sake of having pleasant tasted smoke filled their lungs. And after the taste gone, all that will be left is tar eating away their lungs.

Idiots.


Monday, February 13, 2006

Day 43, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:19 AM

Really, I don't know what to write today.
Actually, I have lots on my head, but don't have the spirit to write them all.
Have been like that for the last 2 weeks.
It feels like I'm getting bored with my life's monotony.
Wake up at around 3 a.m, do the Isya and Tahajjud prayer.
Turn on the computer, write an entry into this blog, read e-mails, and login to Marketiva to put the trades of the day.
And then take the Subuh prayer, breakfast, morning bath, get dressed, prepare everything, and went out, reaching the bus in time.
After 2 buses and a rather short nap, I finally arrive at the office, greeted by the same routine smells and chills.
After 9 hrs or more, interrupted by Lunch, Dhuhur and Ashar prayer, I go home. Another hour on the street, and another short nap later, I arrive at home.

And turn on the computer, login to Marketiva, do some arts, and then eat dinner, take a bath and do the Maghrib prayer.

And then I close all open positions in Marketiva, take the profits of the day, and go to sleep.

Repeat that each and every office days.

I am getting bored on daily basis.

And lives outside office is not getting better either. Spinsters spitting out their words, world leaders satisfy their own cronies, people getting robbed everyday, and children are losing future free of facades and masquerades.

Geh, what a live.


Sunday, February 12, 2006

Day 42, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:27 AM

Boy, yesterday was a hell for me. Sleepy all day, with my head keeps on pounding, and my muscles keep on aching. I think it's been happening every saturday, and I don't really know why. Trying to sleep off my head won't work either.

It feels like every saturday, every cells in my body crave the atmospher of being coming to the office, drink the creamed, ginger flavored coffee, and do all the works all the while browsing the free internet. I didn't take any coffee on the weekend. I decided that I don't need coffee for those 2 days.

I began designing webpages for my site. But pounding head, aching muscles, and coffee craving are not the best conditions for artistic venture, so I ended up being simplistic. The site will be a "frame leaping" experience,where navigation frames will be stacked over so that you can have an easy, to the point browsing experiences.

And about that "Saturday sickness", I planned to do something about it next saturday. Hopefully it will work.

And oh yeah: woe to the supporters of Muhammad Cartoons and that pig country Denmark (where the majorituy are not humans, but pigs!!). You are idiotic and sadistic to support something that is blatantly used as an expressions to mock a Dignified Figure.


Saturday, February 11, 2006

Day 41, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 7:46 AM

Man, yesterday was a rather waste of time. Boss took a leave, and all me and my college did was administration job and peering into old data.
My senior also told me a rather disturbing news: my division is being considered to be disbanded, since much of our responsibilities are being taken over by other divisions.

My senior told me that if the disbanding is true, then we better prepare for realocation. I have a feeling that I'd rather go out and start living by my own.

Making online comics and blog templates seems to be one good way of living right now, since there has been a rather exponential growth of blogs out there. I know I have the ideas and the artistic capabilities to do it. The first thing I have to do is making my blog more presentable. Don't get me wrong, I like the the template now: it's clean, fast-loaded, and no-nonsense thing. But to convince people that I'm a good template maker, I have to make the blog of my template looks good first, right? RIGHT!!

Now that I have grabbed ownership of my own site, I guess the next thing to do is to make it a portal of selling my services

Other way of living off the internet is doing online forex trading. Right now, I am trading with Marketiva platform. This platform is quite nice so far, but one thing that still makes me nervous is the fact that there seems to many unanswered questions regarding this platform. The questions about who they are, where do they come from, and whether they are legal entities or not. Seeing that there are so many scams out there, people thought that Marketiva is nothing more than another form of scam. So far, Marketiva has been delivering what they promise. I guess it's just a matter of time before people see whether they are here to stay or not.


Friday, February 10, 2006

Day 40, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 5:05 AM

Ended up third in a QSHE Quiz yesterday. The members of my team are all in not so much a fighting mood yesterday, including me. Guess we were all expended by our own jobs.

I had created a poster to be included in a QSHE poster competition. It ended up not as good as I have expected, but I completed it nonetheless.

What is QSHE? It's Quality, Safety, Health, and Environment.

And do you know what I think? I think George W.Bush is supporting Denmark because he wants oil price to soar up again, and because he wants another lumber to be piled up on top of that firewood that has been readied to be burnt.

He wants another Iraq, this time in the form of Iran.


Thursday, February 09, 2006

Day 39, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 3:36 AM

Boy, strange thing have been happening to me. Left-back part of my neck, and down all the way to my left arm and hand have been suffering from some kind of aching or stiffness that starts sometimes after lunch. I don't know, is that the coffee, or my rigirous diet+exercises?

Oh well. Nice, long night sleep put that aching away anyway.



It turned out that the Danish paper that displayed the now phenomenal Muhammad Cartoons have rejected to display a cartoon that put humiliate Jesus.

The Danish daily turned down the cartoons of Christ three years ago, on the grounds that they could be offensive to readers and were not funny.

In April 2003, Danish illustrator Christoffer Zieler submitted a series of unsolicited cartoons dealing with the resurrection of Christ to Jyllands-Posten.

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Zieler received an email back from the paper's Sunday editor, Jens Kaiser, which said: "I don't think Jyllands-Posten's readers will enjoy the drawings. As a matter of fact, I think that they will provoke an outcry. Therefore, I will not use them."

The illustrator said: "I see the cartoons as an innocent joke, of the type that my Christian grandfather would enjoy."

"I showed them to a few pastors and they thought they were funny."

But the Jyllands-Posten editor in question, Mr Kaiser, said that the case was "ridiculous to bring forward now. It has nothing to do with the Muhammad cartoons.

"In the Muhammad drawings case, we asked the illustrators to do it. I did not ask for these cartoons. That's the difference," he said.

"The illustrator thought his cartoons were funny. I did not think so. It would offend some readers, not much but some."


Well, we all know now that the editor is a hypocrite. If his boss is a man of righteous virtues, he shall fire the editor immediately. Having a hypocrite in office will bring down the business sooner or later, devastatingly.

And I think displaying carricature of Jesus will not as provocative as displaying carricature of The True Messenger. Had he decided to display Jesus and rejected Muhammad, the world will still be at peace.

We all know that Jesus is the most disgraced "god" ever lives, disgraced even by "believers".

French President Jacques Chirac condemned decisions to reprint cartoons satirising the Prophet Muhammad. Being the veteran of facing angry moslems, Chirac sure has the wisdom.

In a typical "riding the ugly waves" style, the ugly-as-a-hag-in-bad-stormy-day US Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice said Iran and Syria are fuelling Muslim anger in the cartoon row. Heh, Everyone knows what you're aiming at, bitch: putting more fingers to Iran !!


Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Day 38, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:37 AM

Participated in a "jingle" competition yesterday. The topic is anything about QSHE. Oh well, due to lack of preparation (and lack of hearts), we shall be lost for sure. But what the heck, I participated, that's what matters.

So far, I missed one competition, but that's due to works. No harms done (I suppose)

Events surrounding Muhammad cartoons reactions have been various. One of the silliest one is this: A drug dealer who dressed as a suicide bomber to protest at controversial cartoons is sent back to prison. Talking about riding the wave of events..

Denmark blamed Iran after its Tehran embassy is attacked, as Iran cuts trade ties in a row over cartoons. Well, why don't those Danish blame themselves and hang that damn insult? World will be at peace that way.

Muslim MPs in Nigeria burnt Danish and Norwegian flags over cartoons satirising the Prophet Muhammad. Not a nice thing to do, but what the heck. They have The Great Enlightener mocked, so its their turn to mock the mockers.

The Danish PM urged Muslims to refrain from violence in what he dubs a "global crisis" over the Muhammad cartoons. Well, is he deaf or what. We have said our demands, and we demand it fair: Punishment to the mocker of our Blessed Leader !!


Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Day 37, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:19 AM

The sky is leaden gray from morning till afternoon, making clock and tiredness the only indication that the day was getting old and the night was oming. My Marketiva Journey is in profit, and I slept late.

Sleeping late has been a leech for my stamina. And I have said that it tend to drag me to my evil side.

Okay, let's talk the world.

Lebanon's interior minister resigned after protesters torch the Danish embassy in protest at Muhammad cartoons. I should be the other way around: Danish ambassador and his people must abandon Lebanon !!

Two Afghans died in a protest against Muhammad cartoons - thought to be the first deaths in worldwide rallies. That Danish dog has blood in his hands now !!

Indonesian police fired warning shots to break up a protest over cartoons satirising the Prophet Muhammad. Well, we're the biggest muslim country in the world, we have to stand up and protest!!

Denmark listed 14 countries it advises its citizens to avoid amid the Muhammad cartoon protests. The sign of being self-righteous and arrogant. I think arresting that Danish dog is a more effective way, and a rather efficient one too. But noo, they won't arrest one of them, not after they were proud of him!!

Anyway, George W Bush outlines a $2,770bn budget, with more money for defence, but less for social areas. Well, I guess the cost of being liars and paranoids is high.


Monday, February 06, 2006

Day 36, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:51 AM

Rainstorm came at night, when I were sleeping after a somewhat emotionally stormy day.
It's always been emotionally stormy day lately, physically and emotionally.
Between keeping balance between my job and my dreams, there lays balance keeping of my conscious and my desires, and of the indulgence of instincts and the long thought of causes and effects.

I have said that I am a man of whims, and I will not pull those words back. Keeping balances have always been a TOUGH job for everyone!!

Okay, enough of me.

The west secularists government officials have threatened a coercive repercussion and condemned Muhammad cartoon protesters around the world. I guess they have to stood up for their own dignity, don't they? I mean, they let stinky artists drew condemning cartoons that have become insults to believers of a religion and be proud of them, all in the name of democracy and freedom of expression. If they don't stood for their own words (like the have done it in the past anyway), they'll lose their face.

I don't know what will they do if their wives have sex with younger guys in front of TV viewers for the reason of "Freedom of Expressing Long Withheld Desires". If they are proud of them too, my pity to those who are being governed by them.


Sunday, February 05, 2006

Weapon to End All Weapons - part 1

by Eko Prasetyo @ 12:00 PM

We are living in a world filled with tragedies resulting from the subjugation of people by their own choices. Choices that has been transforming into corruptor of the trusts, choices that once given the power trusted upon them by their the masses, turned it into deadly chains and whips that bind the people and force them to work to abide the will of the chosen.

If you have not realized that, you need to do reality check. Do it now, 15 minutes will do. Think on what kind of people sit on the chair of leadership, and think why they are there on the first place.

They are there because the ones who chose them belief that they will make it better for the masses.They are there because their chosers believed in their visions, their promises, their plans, and most of all, their lies.

They are there because their chosers believed in their WORD!!

Now clear your mind and realize it, realize it fully that behind all of those charades, masquerades, hypes, and smiles, lies one simple core to all of the problems that have been plaguing us all humans: the simple misuse of WORD.

Yes, WoRD is the simplest yet most devastating of all weapons ever devised by mankind. It is born with humans, used everyday by humans, and yet, humans have been twisted to numerous miseries by this simple thing that for 99% of the time of its existence is taken for granted.

To those who have realized it, manipulating it will be the next step into gaining dominating powers.

Now realize again, if you are still detaching yourself from the usual trappings of the world you live on, that the very things displayed here is the key to your wellbeings, in the past, now, or in the future. Realize that one thing that has been taken for granted for eons is the one that will make the differences, every seconds.

Realize it, and use your logic, you will be amazed how powerful this simple thing is.

Soldiers start to kill their enemies if there is a WORD of command mouthed by their commander. Their commander issued the command based on the WORD mouthed by his superior. And his superior launched the command based on the thought of his president, which in turn dictated the command based on his own thinking, largely because he read WORD given to him by the people around him. People who are using WORD themselves to gain satisfactions.

And behind them all, covered in the dark, controlling his strings of manipulations, is the one man who understands fully the power of WORD.

With the full use of WORD, he put the world according to his whim. With the irresponsible use of the WORD, he shaped the world, manipulated it, and then set it into motion in any form he wishes.

And to end his sinister ways, people need to employ a Weapon to end all weapons. The weapon is, if you realize now, is WORD.

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Day 35, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 6:22 AM

It's official: Saturday has been a training and hybernation day for me. Long sleeps follow excessive physical exercises.

In another topic, dieting has taken its toll on me: my mind grows lazy and cloudy. Guess I better review my diet program.

I also recognized another negative habit in me: fear for a huge potency. My instinct tends to pull me off paths I know easy to walk on and will bring me HUGE rewards, simply by the fact that there is an adage that says "Easy Comes, Easy Goes". It is the same instinct that recognizes those easy paths to glory. I simply have to deal with this cowardice.

Much that I love to see those artists and publishers who had desecrated image of The Great Prophet Muhammad, I think burning embassies is out of questions. Telling them to go out of country is enough act.

After reading this news, I sense another conspiracy brewing, conspiracy to further hike the profits of security industry and the costs of energy.

Our world has become more and more a world where economy is driven by terrors.


Saturday, February 04, 2006

Day 34, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:57 AM

Sometimes, I am too obstinate even to do things according to my instincts (it' very good, I can assure you). It is the worst when a trend is showing because my natural habit of wanting to become someone who "stands out" from the crowd and wanting to become someone who "defied the trend".

This mix of negative sides of EGO have been making me lost many in my Marketiva forex tradings. After months of trading, I know that my instinct has been sharpened nicely, but still I am not the one to trust it and let my "show off" nature took control.

Well, I guess there's no good thing about showing off a thing you fail so many times, isn't it?

Speaking about bad ends of a showing off, Danish government is trying to calm the protests storm that have been hitting the country since the revelation of "Muhammad cartoons", whether it is official or coming from enraged moslems across the world. Denmark's PM even talked to Muslim envoys amid widening protests in the Prophet Muhammad cartoon row.

Well, I think targeting and enraging moslems are two of hawkish wests agenda for the future years, blame that on fall of the Soviet Union. It's old talk, but let it be retold: USA is a country where going to war is a must agenda for its puppetmaster.

A rich, independent, and anti-america country has been a target of weakening. USA and their dogs have been pointing fingers and acting outright imbalanced (and smearing their reputations more) when dealing with Iran's atomic plant. Their propaganda has even caused a BBC World Service poll to find that Iran is the country most widely viewed as having a negative influence in the world. Well, I don't know if BBC has turned into Blair's lapdog or it is the dangerously succesful propaganda that have been launched by the hawks that triggered the paranoid people to coin that kind of opinion.

And I have guts feeling that UN's atomic watchdog's report on Iran being submitted to the Security Council is nothing more than extensions to that selfish propaganda.

One more insult to injury: Tony Blair and George Bush had already decided to invade Iraq in January 2003, a human rights lawyer claimed. Let me say this once and for all: OIL GREED !!


Friday, February 03, 2006

Day 33, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:36 AM

Boss seems to be wavering. He complained about our lack of determinations to keep what is ours and letting others do our jobs. We thought it is his fault in the first place, being constantly giving what is supposed to be our jobs to other division. Being complained on, and recently lost one of our man, our team coordinated immediately. I don't know if the coordination will last, but at least now I know that we must walk on our own feet from now on, and tried to convince our boss that we are better like that.

And now, it seems that someone still has some brain in France (the country who has never won any war, mind you). The editor of a French newspaper is SACKED for printing a cartoon featuring the Prophet Muhammad. Good. Hopefully more will follow. It is just not right to portray someone as innocent and as great as the number 1 most influential person on earth ever as a man who promoted terrorism due to tiny fractions of his follower love to play with detonators.

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Thursday, February 02, 2006

Day 32, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:32 AM

Yesterday was a somewhat fresh day for me. Having slept enough the previous night and concluded that I have an ADD, my mind is somewhat tamer. I went through the day coping only boredom, and not worse negative emotions.

And I finally able to secure my own website with a name I always want to have: STRIVEARTH.COM. Well, nothing in there yet, but I am planning to make it a hub of all of my digital creations, similar to this but have a more "private" feeling in it.

And this is exactly why europe is going under. Their arrogance and self-righteousness is boundless, and nothing have changed for the past 500 years following the horrible Inquisition. I know that secularism and weak control of their churches have made them able to depict Isa (Jesus) as horrible as they want, but Islam will never allow anyone to even make a picture of The Great Prophet Muhammad (Sallallahu Alaihu Wassalam), because he is the holiest of all man and picturizing him is very much forbidden to avoid worshipping to him instead of God.

It is quite strange that they promote far in liberalism and even have been humiliating religions, but they cower in the face of holocaust lies and avoiding to have anti-semitist label branded to them. I say that's outright HYPOCRISY !!

And terrorism is not taught by Muhammad. He is the one whose teaching says that even in the event of war, killing woman and children and destroying other religions holy building is not permitted. Compare that to the way church taught in the event of Crusade. Compare that to the way Unce Satan's Army desecrating Iraq for the sake of controlling its oil. You can smell hypocrisy right away.

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Day 31, 2006

by Eko Prasetyo @ 4:35 AM

A holiday spent reading, playing Civilization IV, and watching newly bought DVDs. (Desperate Housewives second season, yay!!)

I also finally recognized that I am someone who is livelier when acting on whim (it tends to make me livelier), not on careful on long deliberation (it tends to make me lose focus). What I have been afraid all this time is the fact that when acting on whim, I tend to miss important facts, facts that are crucial for success. That's why I have been resorting on long deliberations, which in the end is not succesful either.

Perhaps I am a victim of Attention Deficit Disorder, there are so many in the symptoms list that are applicable to me, especially dominant the lack of focus, great start but poor ending, disorganized life, and easily bored.
And it seems curing ADD needs some medications, not just some psychological adjustments. But the good thing is:
Six months to a year of counseling is often needed to work through most problems. For those with ADHD this can be faster. After dealing with an issue, people with ADHD are generally ready to move on. We tend not to dwell on the past; to not be reflective. You should feel that going to the therapist is helping you and that you are improving. Watch out for therapists who want to continue therapy when you feel ready to end it. They may need to "help" you more than you need to be helped.

Many don't require intensive long-term therapy to get their lives on track and to improve their self-esteem and confidence if they don't have a lot of lifetime baggage that needs to be worked through. Often, medication, learning about what ADHD is and is not, putting good coping skills in place, exercising regularly and taking good care of themselves, along with belonging to an ADHD support group, even via the computer, are enough. Sometimes, instead of therapy, adults with ADHD only need "coaching." They benefit by having someone who regularly checks in with them to see how things are going; someone who helps the adult with ADHD develop and carry out strategies that will work for him in achieving his goals.


Well, like so many problems in my live: once recognized, I'll hunt relentlessly to solve it myself. This one is no exception.

I really wish to end my procrastinating and poor ending habits. They are not good traits for someone who bends on dominating the world....

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